|the female diversion
||[Oct. 12th, 2008|06:51 pm]
i am well aware of the fact that what i'm about to write may be considered offensive to certain people, but i'm beyond the point of caring whether or not it is 'considered' offensive, because to me, it constitutes reality, and if reality is somehow offensive, then there isn't a fucking thing that i can do about it.|
simply put, i'm at a point in my life where i am beyond frustrated at the opposite sex. i'll go on record and flat out say it: most girls just PISS me off. i used to think that i'm simply being ignorant or that i'm just stupid, but i retract the idea that i'm somehow unintelligent enough to figure out the truth of the matter, which is clearly the FACT that MANY girls hold positions of power in almost every single possible relationship that they can forge with anyone who is male. is this a grandiose and bold generalization? SURE, but generalizations can also be completely true as well and there is no way that THAT isn't an accurate assessment in far too many modern day situations.
according to dwight k. schrute, women have many defects, including weak arms. while that has never been an issue with me, one of the "defects" i've noticed is that so many of them simply LOVE going after assholes. is that a cliche amongst cliches? yes, it SO is, and yet it is SO incredibly true. i can not and will not even begin to think of the amount of times i've heard girls, both in real life and countless movies, tv shows, reality shows, and any other medium that gives them an opportunity to vent about their personal lives, just go the fuck off about how much of an asshole their boyfriend is and blah blah blah. "all guys care about getting off, all they care about is fucking you, all they care about is getting some pussy, they never listen, they don't care, they are selfish, etc." well, maybe if you would QUIT FUCKING THEM and then NOT DATE more assholes like that, they wouldn't be given the opportunity to keep on treating you like the shit that you apparently feel like you are becoming. the most infuriating thing about this whole ridiculous process and romantic pitfall is that most asshole guys are GIVEN the oppurtunity to treat you like shit whenever you allow them to become involved with you on an intimate level.
so i have a question for women: if someone told you that they were going to treat you like shit, that they wouldn't listen to you, give you the proper respect that you deserve, and that they just wanted to bang you and then go to sleep or leave, would you still want to be with them? i can safely assume that the answer in most scenarios would simply be NO. however, how many guys tell you upfront that they will eventually learn to denigrate you? probably none, because then they can't hit the power-u. but what i really want to know is how any of this becomes different AFTER THE FACT? so for instance, how come AFTER the truth comes out, which is that the guy sucks, and that he is a total asshole who treats you like shit, how come you still stay with him anyway? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?
seriously, it is impossible for me to feel any hint of pity at anyone (not just women) who has the opportunity (keyword HAS) to NOT be in a shitty situation and yet choose to ignorantly NOT do anythign about it at all. and before any feminists pounce on me, I AM NOT talking about spousal abuse and domestic violence, which is NOT and has nothign to do with what i am going off about. i am discussing the activities of the girls that constitute my demographic of interaction, which are generally girls in their early to late 20s who are not married and who do not have kids. issues involving wife beaters and serious domestic violence (verbal or physical) are serious, sociologically and culturally damaging situations where my heart goes out to anyone who does not have the power to change their circumstances. if anyone even remotely assumes that i would EVER in my life condone, or ignore the use of violence and the plight of defenseless women in such situations, then they are completely missing the point of my argument.
my whole issue regarding the 'bad boy' phenomena is that i advocate, as always, an equal playing field where people do not let themselves get taken advantage of and where truth, equality, and honesty come through on BOTH ENDS, males and females both. it needs to be clarified RIGHT NOW that my ultimate goal, both now and hopefully forever, is that the equal unification of males and females might one day take place and that i won't have to write these stupid blogs anymore.
unfortunately, i don't see that happening because at this point, the elephant in the room is the fact that i think way too many women KNOW that they have the power of the vagina and they DO take advantage of it and this in the long run DOES create an environment where men end up becoming assholes because they are eventually turned into the assholes and bad boys that these stupid girls want.
now is this ALWAYS the situation? fuck no! i know far too many girls who are in committed relationships with guys who don't treat them like shit, and who wouldn't ever allow themselves to be in positions where they would be treated like shit, but i know even more who are either unsatisfied with their relationships or in a position where they essentially HAVE to 'test' out all potential suitors and they do this by flooding the market with themselves in hopes of attracting male counterparts that they can then "try out" and discard until the one that might fit their personal mold finally comes along.
while the logical part of me can not argue with the idea that it makes senses to see what is out there, another inexplicable part of me views the entire process of dating, or human interaction between males and females (who both secretly strive towards finding someone who will have sex with them adn make them happy in the long run) to be a huge fiasco of incalculable proportions. my frustration lies in the fact that there doesn't seem to be any kind of other option available for young people to talk to each other without sex somehow being there, even if it is latent. sex itself is not the cornerstone of any relationship, but it is an undeniable aspect of the human mind and body that is present and it is an issue that exists, whether or not you want to admit it...and a lot of women do not. they love to claim that they can have all kinds of friends who are guys who do not want to have sex with them and that (in a general scope) might very well be true, but the real truth is that at least half of them DID want to have sex with you at some point and they DO secretly know that this is the case. even if it is an unconscious thing, sexual tension exists everywhere and it is an embarrassment to sentient human beings to claim that sex isn't something that is on the mind of everyone at some point in time during the course of just about any type of relationship.
what pisses me off here is that the act of even thinking about sex is almost considered taboo and the mental state of someone is demonized if they admit to the fact that even if it is completely an unconscious reaction, the politics of sexual power exist every single second of every single day at every single moment between males and females. choosing to act upon sexual urges is completely irrelevant to the fact that human beings are capable of recognizing the feelings of desire, of love, and of the need to touch and be touched by someone else, even if it isnt in a sexual manner. sometimes, people are just lonely.
in many instances, i feel as though the politics of female power lie deep in the vagina, and the last time i checked, females are the ones who control who can visit, who can get a grand tour, and who needs to be pulled out by security and given the boot. i don't care what anyone says, THAT is the truth. women do call the shots, they do determine who their partners will be, and they are always right because if they aren't, then it's rape, which is easily the most disgusting and dehumanizing thing that someone can ever do to their fellow human being.
should women be in such positions? if i say no, then i am considered a chauvinistic pig. if i say yes, then i am "right," but according to who? if i say, define the positions of power, which is what i would say, since THAT makes the most sense to me, then i would be given the evil eye. but that is exactly what i am going to say: what are the positions of power that lie between the legs of women ? i'm not trying to make that sound like a dirty euphemism. it is a question and i want to know the answer...because my idea of respect is destroying the playing fields and setting the boundaries down anew, face to face. i do not want to be a slave to the vagina, yet in this society, i feel as though that is the only way a man will be considered respectable, which is to say that he must do whatever he can to appease the collective vagina of the world. in my non existent ideal world, i respect people based on how they are, not what they have, and i'm frustrated and tired and pissed off of always being a slave to the va jay-jay. this kind of respect is synthetically created, and it is not humanely earned, and i'm tired of the fact that i feel as though the entire whole of femininity lies in the secret worship of the life-giving vulva and that i am somehow invalidated from choosing another religion. i am tired of this because no one else will admit to it. instead of claiming that the playing fields are equal, which they are not in terms of sexual politics between men and women, i just wish that women would admit that they know they have the power and they take advantage of it. at least then, my frustrations and feelings of inferiority would make more sense to me.
since the option of castrating myself is not necessarily sound of mind (or body), my next best option is to simply give up all hope in ever being completely truthful with someone of the opposite sex, because that is OBVIOUSLY not what they want to hear, since being honest and upfront with women has done ABSOLUTELY nothing for my personal life beyond giving me a ton of friends who are females who will never ever even remotely be interested in me sexually, which i am becoming completely accustomed to nowadays anyway. instead of finding more stress and frustration by playing the fields, i'm opting to simply eject myself from the game. the power of the vagina is an ever expanding force in the universe that i feel only compels me toward self destruction and not the natural spiritual or mental growth that i feel as a human being i should endure. the fact that my sexual feelings aren't ever taken seriously enough (which SOME might regrettably argue about) is further testament to the fact that even if i give alms at the "dome of the cock" everyday, my "religious" inquiries will never be validated fully and my own desires will be condemned and considered fallible forever.